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  • Trudi McGee

Father, who do you say that I AM?

It's early morning, and I look at my sweet great-granddaughter's face and that of my husband, and even though I have been so angry at him, I am grateful. I get up, slip on my house shoes, and prepare to meet with my Father. I go downstairs, put on my prayer shawl, and bring my mind back and focus on the Father. I push back thoughts of yesterday and fears of what tomorrow might bring—evaluating and reevaluating myself. I told myself, Yeah, you could have done better, or Why are you so angry? Are you doing the right thing? I am sweeping the floor that should have been cleaned yesterday and putting dishes in the dishwasher that should have been loaded yesterday. I see much room for improvement; what a wreck, I thought. A lot of should have been, could have been, and what are you doing now?

So here it is, thoughts in my mind and my soul bubbling up, not pretty things either, and I say, Father, I need you. Continuing to get my thoughts in check now, I kneel and pray to the Father, thanking him for a new day, exalting him, asking for forgiveness, and so much wanting to feel his sweet presence again. As I am still in prayer, I get up from kneeling, go to the refrigerator, get my communion element, and remember that every negative thing has been nailed to the cross. Every sin that I have committed. Nailed to the cross. My thoughts I now bring under subjection, on the cross, my failures, I now bring under the cross, my fears, I now bring under the cross. I nail all of them there on the cross. Those things in my soul that bubble up, I fix them to the cross.

I began to feel peaceful again, and I remember Psalm 91, a scripture that reads You are not alone; don't ever think you are alone. I hear every prayer; I see your thoughts. Yep, here it is, that feeling that I belong. I ask the Father, who do YOU say that I am

He smiled, gave a little snicker, and began to impress upon me. You are made in my very image. You are my beloved daughter. You have my nose, eyes, and ears, and I love you dearly. You have a part of me. All that I am, you have a part of me. Just like you love your great-granddaughter, I love you so much more. You love her when she creates a mess; you love her when she does something wrong. I love you so much; I gave my son to die for you, to redeem you from the enemy; now think about that. I gave the ultimate for you. There is no greater love. I loved you even before you were born, even before you were being formed.

Father is saying today to many of us who have grown up in an atmosphere of ridicule, criticism, and putdowns: I see your foundation, and today, I take out the weak, stony, uneven foundation and build you up strong. Now, see and recognize this. You are my child; I am even right now with you as you read this. As you read this, picture him beside you, united with you, inseparable. The Father says I am looking into your heart right now; I do see the pain you have suffered in the past and the things of right now., but no worries. Don't you worry, my child, my beloved. Right now, he smiles and looks at you with eyes of kindness and great assurance that everything is alright. He snickers again and says, my child, if only you could see the grand plans I have in store for you. (Jeremiah 29:11)

He stands with great authority in and over your life, and he speaks directly to the enemy. Desist from troubling my child. Peace, be still. (Mark 4:39)

Then he looks you right in your eyes and says to you ever so gently, so compassionately, holding your face in his hands, so close as if you can feel his breath. As he says this to you, you repeat it to him, saying yes, I Am to each of God's statements.

You are my child, A citizen of Heaven (1 John 3:!) (Philippians 3:20)

You are forgiven ( 1 John 2:12)

You have been redeemed (Ephesians 1:7)

You are light (Matthew 5:14)

You are Blessed ( Psalms 84:4)

You are so Loved Precious in My Sight ( Isaiah 43:3)

You are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17)

You are created for Good works (Ephesians 2:10)

You are victorious 1 Corinthians 15:57

You are accepted (Romans 15:7)

You are beautiful (Song of Solomon 4:7)

You are more than a conqueror(Romans 8:37)

You are my temple ( 1 Corinthians 3:16

You are one with me, Mine ( 1 Corinthians 6:17) (Isaiah 43:1). You are hidden, safe. (Colossians3:3) (Psalms 91)


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